dope vs. wack

I - JULY

i can't believe it's joo-lye. i feel as though i've done nothing productive all summer (despite the face that i work 3 jobs, i guess). but then i remind myself that its still summer for 2 more months. i'm not as poor as i once believed i was, so that's amazing.

pat found me a pretty cool old polaroid land 100a and i am thoroughly happy about it.

last night was crazy... i met a roadie for lifehouse at the bird (hahah i know right) who turned out to be pretty awesome and got me in for free and i saw a little of the tour bus too. yay.

i'm being insane and normal and ME again, having fun. today i remember what i used to be like. and i missed me.

II - struggles

a. need a place to live in a month

b. the mental image i have of being up on that fence, hitting people with a large stick

c. financial aid is nonexistant for the time being; the feds need to figure this out.

III - next

i think i'll see "wackness". i'm also going to read more chuck palahniuk because it's enjoyable. i'm also planning on continuing to be myself because i really like it. a lot. i'm going to get through 554 US (2008), district of columbia v. heller, because i love the supreme court and i love legal jargon. also, per my talk tonight with matt, i'm going to enjoy being up on that fence because "one day i will break. and people will find out i'm not actually that funny" according to him. which is true i suppose. i also will continue my picture taking because it's been good lately and i'd like to continue it. naturally, the seagull will be the main player in this scenario.

IV - last

When the vapour hits the air

When the button feels your touch

It's fall just like you sense

It'll fall just like you sense

Into some forgotten sea

Where the envy and the hate

Swim around in figure eights

Swim around in figure eights

We descend so easily

Give it up for short-term memory

Fight your nature if you can

And hope for heaven where we land

All the arms around you now

Could they ever catch you then

First you tell me not to fret

Then you frighten me again

Can't you listen to the beast

Can't you do with any less

I was only getting dressed

Now I'm gettin dissaffected and

You're the brother and the beast

You're the friend I knew the best

Can't you listen to the past

Can't you let the sickness pass

It'll fall just like you said

- halloween.alaska