My two best friends and I started doing email updates about our lives to each other.... It's been so nice to be an active part of each other's lives again, even if it is just words. I've been replying to their long emails, sometimes one-liners, sometimes a little longer than that.... but I haven't written a long "life update" email to them yet. Erin called me out on it last night, so this morning I did it. I wrote it all out, the good and the bad. I sat there and stared at it for a minute, and seeing it all there on one page left me completely overwhelmed.

I realized that I have become very good at holding it together. There was a time, not so very long ago, that I couldn't stay composed at all... but I've become very good at it. I've become so good at it that I realized I haven't allowed myself to feel anything at all about any of it.

Here's me, about to feel the good and the bad... the vulnerability is going to be so worth it.

for now, enjoy this real beauty from a few weekends ago... maggie of maggie evans designs is so drop dead gorgeous on her own wedding day: