Wednesday, September 26, 2012

My two best friends and I started doing email updates about our lives to each other.... It's been so nice to be an active part of each other's lives again, even if it is just words. I've been replying to their long emails, sometimes one-liners, sometimes a little longer than that.... but I haven't written a long "life update" email to them yet. Erin called me out on it last night, so this morning I did it. I wrote it all out, the good and the bad. I sat there and stared at it for a minute, and seeing it all there on one page left me completely overwhelmed.

I realized that I have become very good at holding it together. There was a time, not so very long ago, that I couldn't stay composed at all... but I've become very good at it. I've become so good at it that I realized I haven't allowed myself to feel anything at all about any of it.

Here's me, about to feel the good and the bad... the vulnerability is going to be so worth it.

for now, enjoy this real beauty from a few weekends ago... maggie of maggie evans designs is so drop dead gorgeous on her own wedding day:

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

never been more proud.

I've never been more proud of anything in my life than I am of everything that's happened in the last year. I'm going to do one of my favorite things, look backwards a little bit.

In the last year, I have...
moved across the country to a place where I literally knew no one (except Erik, that is).
hiked my first 14,000 foot mountain.
celebrated a whole year of being married.
climbed outside for the first time in Boulder Canyon (AND am in love with it!).
got my first tattoo.
received government benefits for the first and only time (and got off them as soon as humanly possible).
had my first holidays away from home.
fallen back in love with my bike.
gotten very close to making photography my full time gig (coming soon... yes!).

most importantly, I feel like I've finally made a life for myself... and it's the thing I'm most proud of overall.