get ready for a cuteness overload....



and he claimed he was mad at her, not an hour before this.
so wonderful.

i'm back.

well, i never really left, i guess.

i started a new year, started back in classes, went back to two jobs instead of one, and just got BUSY. too busy.

i've been feeling just...bored in general. no travel, no money, no real way to do much else but work (which i also think is thanks largely to a dreary indiana winter.... here's hoping this is my LAST one of these atrocious snowy messes).

but being bored always lets up, you know... and tonight i had another realization: i'm becoming boring. which was a terrifying thought.

gotta pick up a camera, gotta create, gotta dance around... i gotta make something of all this i have inside of me.

today is my day.

i just want to do everything.

this is me, getting back to my end goal of always being happy.

and, of course, creating an actual endless summer. (it IS possible)

late-night

I remember when late-night used to be late but lately its getting earlier and earlier. I guess its just a product of age but I always heard you're only as old as you feel and if that's really true I must be around 12.

I'm itching to get away. This time last year I was getting ready to spend a week in L.A. but I think I have to wait until March. 4 days backpacking in Arizona at the canyon is worth the wait, I guess but it just seems so far away.

At some point last spring I felt this... this ripping inside myself. I don't know what caused it or what precisely changed because of it, but I know I felt it. It started quietly, gradually, and slowly it went from a slight lack of balance to an all out tug of war. I feel it again now.

I just had this abrupt thought to myself that I've shared quite enough of my thought process... I'd have handwritten this but I was unable to locate a pen.

Big ideas are brewin. Big stuff. I need a new project, this was a useful brainstorming session.... welcome to my brain; may you never get lost in here.

so blogger has this fun feature that you can tell where traffic is coming to your site from, if it was referred. this includes google searches. i enjoy reading the things people search for that lead them here. today/yesterday, someone searched for "shrugsmugs.blogspot.com cutter family". it reminded me of something i think everyone should read, particularly those who harbor needless bad feelings towards the cutters (ahem, 75% of the commenters on Bloomington Velo-News). when i was doing the updating of my blog right after little 5, i posted this entry and i feel it more strongly now than ever. maybe that's what whoever was trying to find, i don't know.

i was going to start a new thing on new year's that i did this certain photo thing every day.

apparently i'm incapable of STARTING resolutions, let alone keeping them going.

whoopsy.

also, i needed to book a room in the IMU, as we're getting hitched about 10 feet from the union, buuuut they're all full. now i found a place called the showers inn, but have never heard of it, nor heard anything good or bad about it. research, morrre research, argh! it never ends.

i'll leave you with the only photo erik managed to sneak into last night when i was playing with photobooth... the man hates cameras pointed at him... and it had to be one covering my face(s?).

sheesh.

i rode yesterday. for almost 3 hours.

it was, in a word... abysmal. i can't remember the last time i had a ride that slow. or the last time i bonked that hard.

i have a long way to go to get back to where i was. but i'll get there.

thanks be to fullmer for dealing with my slowness for the whole ride.

on a different happy note, i spent my afternoon after my ride making a funny little wedding website... go visit it and tell me how absolutely cheesy it is, ahaha. also i finished up our invites. wonnnderful!

i don't have a picture for today, sadly. perhaps later. but good things all around!

a great new year's celebration with great people. everyone was super-photogenic, but alycin was just EXTRA photogenic :)

























good year ahead.

happy new year.

should old acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind
should old acquaintance be forgot,
and old lang syne
for auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
and surely you'll buy your pint cup
and surely I'll buy mine,
and we'll take a cup o' kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.



happy new year to all my friends, near and far.